Moving on to Cycle 6 :-(

It's not looking good for a BFP for the June Cycle.  BFN's at 9 & 11dpo.  With an LP of 13, AF should be arriving in the next couple of days. *tear*  Oh, Well, what can I do, except try, try again.  As annoying as all this "trying" is, I still have hope that one day (hopefully one day THIS year) it will pay off.  Even though it seems like an eternity I've been TTC, really it's only been about 5months, so I guess these things just take time.  And, as much as I want a baby, like yesterday, I still want Father's timing, not my own.  All I can do is hope he has plans to bless me with another, but in this my future is uncertain.  In the past 5mths. I feel like I've literally tried everything!  So, I guess I'll just keep doing what I'm doing..charting, OPKing and Preseed (when needed).  I do have plans to eventually add some more supplements to my diet (when my money truck comes in) and I really need to get back into a good exercise routine.  The last two times I joined Jazzercise I got PG!  But, with money tight, at the moment, I'll have to stick to a homemade plan for now, and that's the ticket, actually STICKING to the routine...ugh, not one of my stronger suits.  I tell you what, there's nothing like living by Faith, believing and having hope in what you can't see, hear, or touch with hopes that one day it will manifest.  I think I'm going to hold off on praying for patience for awhile, I've had enough of that lesson. Ha!  The "July Plan" will soon be in the works....to be continued...

4dpo and playing the waiting game...

Not much going on besides waiting in my 2ww...which is Boooorrriinngg!  Tomorrow I will have downed my last of the pineapple core, I feel like an idiot every time I eat it, like it's probably doing a whole lot of nothing, but hey can't ever say I never tried it.  If desire alone could get me PG, I'd be in my 3rd trimester by now!  I'm hoping beyond all hope this is the month of my BFP, but muting my emotions, just in case it's not.  Tis a hard balance to juggle, but all part of the journey.  I really would love to hold off til 12dpo to test this cycle, but don't know if I'm capable of such a feat...so we'll see.  My sweet mommie is coming in this weekend, so I'm hoping her being here will help me keep my mind off of testing.  Then I start thinking about how hard it will be to keep it to myself if I am!  But, as of right now, I really feel that would be the best thing, considering my last pregnancy...it will be really hard not to let the fear of MC get to me next go round, but I must live by Faith not fear.  One more week til testing!!!

Ovulation Day!

It's CD19 and I'm Ovulating today!  I had + OPK's CD17 & 18 and a - today, which can only mean my surge is over and has done it's job.  My corpus luteum that released my egg should be dying today which should give me a rise in temp in the morning, then I'll officially be in my 2WW!!  Girl has been learning a little sumt'n sumt'n! ;-)  Of course my O has been happening unpredictably every cycle, which makes BDing perfectly very hard to do.  But, I think I did a pretty good job this cycle, even though there's always a wish you could've DTD a couple more times, but I tried to stick to my schedule! 

I began BDing EOD starting on CD13, 15, 17...then when I got my + OPK on CD17 I was able to begin BDing ED and got some action in on CD18 as well...yay me!  That will probably be a wrap on the BDing for this fertile window, so hopefully that did the trick!  BD 3 nights in a row for me and DH is pushing it.  That's BD on Day 6,4,2 &1 leading up to O!  I am hopeful for this cycle, but now only time will tell.  I plan on starting the Pine.Core tomorrow and eating it ED up until 5dpo. (Sun.-Wed), then I will begin testing 10dpo/CD28/Mon. 27th.  KMFX'ed for a BFP!!!  (EDD: March 10, 2012) Stay tuned....

June Cycle Check-In

Not much going on at the moment...I'm currently on CD12.  I'm unsure whether my O will be early or not, so I'm unsure if I'm currently within my fertile window.  Just in case, I will keep with my June Plan BDing schedule, which I don't think is going to be a problem making happen.  I started OPK's earlier on CD11 (yesterday), I would just rather be safe than sorry.  Right now they are neg., CM is Sticky, and CP is LFC (low-firm-closed), which are all signs that O is still a ways away, which is good, it won't sneak up on me this time!  So far, my cycle has been great, no abnormal bleeding or spotting, temps look good and steady, in fact they look the best, this cycle, yet; no erratic up and downs.
I've been spending lots of time online looking for a GOOD Prenatal and have been very frustrated trying to find exactly what I'm looking for.  I would like to find one that is: 1. All natural, organic, Kosher (no synthetics and NO PABA which is very toxic) 2. Has enough of all the recommended Vitamins and Minerals I should be taking without having to do any supplementing. 3.  Is preferably ONE a day and Not 3, 4, and yes I've even seen 6 a day! 4. INEXPENSIVE!  So, believe it or not vitamins that meet this criteria are either VERY hard to find or I'm just not looking in the right place.  So, my search continues...I'm going to check some Health Food stores near me soon also.

June Plan interference

Well, that was awkward...We all know my DH is not Pro-TTC, so I've been doing him a favor by not enlightening him of my plans.  Recently I ordered more OPK's from Amazon and instead of arriving during the week (while DH is out) like they ALWAYS do, they ended up arriving yesterday, on a Sat., while DH was home!  He actually brought me the package! I about died.  Of course he wanted to know what was in it, then proceeded to open the package!  Let's just say he wasn't upset/angry about the tests, but wasn't happy, he was more annoyed, but in a joking way (hard to explain).  I think he thinks I'm just crazy, and I really believe he thinks because he doesn't WANT anymore he's NOT going to have anymore....I like to say he resides along the river, De Nile.  Our conversations are quite comical (frustratingly comical), we both couldn't be any more hard-headed when it comes to having a baby.  He tells me last night, I better not be trying to get pregnant, to which I reply, "Um, yes, I am", to which he replies, "Um, no you're not".  It's quite ridiculous really, but for me, where there's a Way...there's a Will!  He thinks he's slick by telling me he's going to regulate our BDing to once a month...LMBO on that one. We all know it only takes ONE perfectly timed BD to make a baby and  He knows he can't go more than a week anyway, besides I will rape him if I need to.  But, all kidding aside, seriously, this is not going to make my "plans" any easier.  Especially this cycle where most of my BDing was planned throughout the week, we rarely DTD during the week, so it will be quite obvious for me to initiate during that time.  I'll do what I can, but it looks like I'll have another "low rating" on the BDing this cycle.  Darn stubborn husband, has to make life so difficult, literally!
You know if must be really nice to have a Kind, Supportive husband who longs to have a baby just as much as his spouse, to Try Together, to be Excited to see a BFP together.  I've never been afforded this privilege. Instead I get De Nile and looks of Fear at the sight of a BFP, aren't I lucky?!

The "June" Plan

Maybe I should say "Tentative" Plan, since we all know when it comes to trying to plan what a body will do and when it will do it, can be pretty uncontrollable.  But, here's the plan anyway and fingers crossed it will pan out accordingly AND Successfully!....

Sun, June 12th- CD 13:  Start OPK's (and use every day til +)/BD
Tues, June 14th- CD15: BD
Thurs, June 16th- CD17: BD
Sat, June 18th-CD 19: BD
Mon, June 20th-CD 21: BD

This is the "plan" as of right now and going by my last charted cycles, according to them I could O anywhere between CD17-21, so this would cover the bases.  I would prefer not to have to BD this much, so I will be counting on my OPK's to help me determine when would be the BEST time to BD.  I would like to, at least, BD a few days before O and on O, the trick will be discovering when O will show.  Once my OPK's begin to darken, gearing up to O, I will ADD Mucinex, PreSeed, and Soft Cups to the mix.

AND as if I don't already want to get PG enough, I just realized the other day if I do get PG this month I will be due with the baby around my "Golden Anniversary", DH and I will make 14 years on Feb. 14th 2012!!  So, OMGosh, how awesome would that be to round out our little family on such a special month!  Just something else to obsess over...LOL.  I am going to Try to do myself a Big favor and keep my mind clear of all TTC antics for the time begin and continue the obsessing only during my Fertile Window. 

Mommy's Trying Little One.....Mommy's Trying.