Rocky start to Cycle 6

AF arrived at the worst time ever, not that she's ever a very welcomed guest, but this cycle her timing couldn't have been worse!  She arrived the day of my 11 year old's birthday party at the beach!  As if throwing parties aren't stressful enough, they're even more stressful on a beach! Now, let me just say, the party turned out a big success and everyone thoroughly enjoyed it.  First of all, this was a new place to us, so we went not really knowing what to expect when we got there.  After traveling over an hour to get there, it was time to set up, which entailed Lugging our car's packed (and not light) contents a few yards down the beach to our designated spot.  Now, keep in mind, this is day one of AF, which is usually the heaviest and crampiest...but hey the show must go on, right?  So, finally after setting everything up just so, in the midst of kids wanting to run in every direction, while impatiently demanding their sun tan lotion to be applied ASAP, we notice in the distance a fast approaching thunderstorm (lightening included).  Oh, and did I mention our "Restrooms" were two very nasty port-a-potties about 10 yards from where we were? Lovely, isn't it.  Back to the storm...So, we soon realize we will probably have to gather the kiddies and hunker down under our canopies and wait the storm out.  Inevitably the storm ended up going around us and making the day cooler and less scorched (which was nice), but not before blowing hurricane like winds through our setup and pretty much making shambles of my party decor.  I forgot to take my "Whatever, I don't care pill" that morning (do you know where I can get some of those?), so the whole time my PMS is raging, thankfully I was able to cap the pending explosion and didn't pack everything up and sprint to the nearest heating pad.  Once the weather settled, the rest of the day turned out to be quite nice (whew, disaster, once again averted).  Long story short, I have been very stressed lately, mainly with finances, but the party planning didn't help, and with my mom in town, just having a house guest can throw routine and order out the window (which, I tend to function best in).  On the other hand, having my mom here, I have enjoyed her company and actually enjoyed the unpredictability of fun times shared.  I know it's the stress that has thrown a monkey wrench in my period, I just hope it doesn't affect the rest of my cycle or my O.  So, this is will be my 6th month TTC and since my MC.  I don't know why I thought, I would get PG so quickly TTC?  Let's just hope I can get PG faster than it's taking to sell our home, I though that was going to be quick process too.  I'm really going to try to NOT think something is wrong with me and my ability to have more kids and just stay focused on leaving the decision in my Father's Faithful Hands.  I have to accept the fact that it may be His Will that I have no more, to me that is a bitter reality to swallow, but I can't continue to live in a state of wanting something so bad, that I may never get, and allowing it to bring me down and steal my peace and joy.  I'm so blessed already, sometimes I feel selfish asking for more, but what's so wrong with wanting to give more love to another being and make our family bigger?  I'm growing weary in my TTC journey, but not relenting, ever hopeful.  Crazy AF's, Stressful days, Sandy Parties, TTC rollercoasters...it really is all worth it, my family is worth everything!  July plan in the works....