Lucky Cycle 7??

New Cycle = New Plan!  This is going to be kinda tricky this month, only because my cycles have been like a box of chocolates..I never know what I'm going to get! Hahaha...thank you Forrest Gump!  So, in my past cycle history I've had quite a range in O times, ranging anywhere from CD17-CD25!  That's a difference of 9 days (over a week), people!!  Doesn't make for easy planning, for sure!  So, what's a TTC girl to do?  I'll have to shoot for an average within the range and XMF's I hit the nail on the head.  My average O time is CD20, so I will go with that, give or take a few days in either direction...Thank God for OPK's, that's all I can say.  One thing, I'm going to strive to do this cycle that hasn't been done before is to BD On the Day of O AND Day After, this would be the best way to "seal the deal", in my puny, human efforts anyway.  So, here goes the Plan for August Cycle....
CD14 (8/24) - Start OPK's, and continue to use, each day, til +
CD17 (8/27) - Begin BD EOD, till + OPK
Once I get my + OPK I will BD on the day it goes back to - (this is typically my O day), and then BD again the following day (for insurance).

duh duh duh...the dreaded BFN (AGAIN)

Knocked down (again) for the the 6th time...BUT not out for the count.  I'm sad that I am still on this emotional, roller-coaster of a journey, but have not lost perspective or hope of seeing my efforts and prayers become a soon reality.  I know that Father's timing is perfect and I have the patience I need to endure the wait.  As my 2WW drew near to the end, I had a feeling I would not be seeing my bfp at the end of it.  I do realize that every pregnancy and the signs and symptoms of each one can be different each time, but there are specific things I usually do notice before each of my pregnancies, and I have not noticed anything out of the norm of normal progesterone symptoms.  Today I am 10dpo and I anticipate a visit from AF in a few days.

I am already looking forward to trying a new BD schedule next cycle, cycle 7!  7 is a very Lucky number and hopefully will bring me LOTS of baby luck!  Although each unsuccessful cycle that passes is a major let down, I am gaining a great deal just in the experience alone which I am very appreciative for.  I am thoroughly enjoying charting and temping and getting to know my body and how it works; I have become very educated and informed as far as my body, supplements, vitamins, VBAMC's, and best of all have been connected to some of the sweetest women I've ever known, they have been my rock during this journey and I wouldn't want to do this without them!

My goals before the end of this year are as follows:

1.  Become Pregnant!
2.  Sell our Home and Move to a Bigger one.
3.  Do well in school and make excellent grades.

I have all the Faith in the world that I will meet these goals!
~Stay tuned for August's Cycle 7 Baby Plan.............

The 2WW for Cycle 6 has begun!

Temp Rise Today! Now the 2WW begins... I have a good feeling about this cycle, hoping this is my month!  My EDD would be April 18th (a spring baby :-)  I plan on testing around 10dpo, so a week from this Sat. KMFX'ed we caught my Rainbow!! To Be Continued...

Got my + OPK!

Good News! I got my + OPK, in fact not long after my last post! Collective "WHEW"!  Yippie skippie, all is okie dokie!  I had another + today and have been able to BD both days! Yay, Me!  So, although I'm Oing later than I have yet, I'm still KMFX'ed for my BFP this cycle!  Wish me lots of Sticky Baby Dust!>>>

Hurry Up & Wait... Is Becoming the Story of Cycle 6

So, get this, I'm on CD22 and still no Ovulation!  I've had signs of Ovulation, but no + OPK or temp rise.  This is the latest I've ever O'ed in my Charting Cycle History (5mths)!  I'm beginning to wonder if I'll even O at all.  I'm past wondering wth is going on or why this is happening.  Sometimes O can be delayed by great amounts of stress, sickness, medications, etc....all of which has NOT been affecting me!  I pretty much gave up on any kind of scheduling or BDing.  I will keep using my OPK's and BD if and when I ever get a +.  According to my CM and CP I should have O'ed by now.  Over this past weekend my OPK's were so dark, it was hard to distinguish, but I could tell they were not quite + yet, so I figured the next day they would be, but nothing, if fact by the end of the weekend they actually started to lighten up! UGH!  Saying I'm Frustrated is an understatement.  But what can do, but do what I've been doing for the past 3 weeks...Wait....And hope that the Wait will SOON be over!

Random Thoughts of a Weary Traveler

It's been about 6 months since my MC and I still have periods of very strong emotion. I can't get over how painful it still is to hear about other women being PG or to see them.   I guess I thought by now I would be further along in my healing or at least to a stage where I still didn't harbor so much anger and negativity about it.
I wanted to get PG for a long time, but ever since the MC the desire has greatly intensified. I feel like I've been dealt a great injustice and I don't know what I've done to deserve it.  I feel like I've been teased and played a horrible joke upon. Every TTC month that passes and proves to be unsuccessful is like a slap in the face.  It might be okay if I was still in my 20's and had time, but now that I'm 33 I feel pressure to make it happen soon.  I still don't want to accept the reality that I may just have three beautiful kids and that's it, although the possibility never escapes my mind.  My heart screams otherwise, that I was destined to have more, and I can't quiet the constant longing.  Having a baby is literally consuming me, and deep down, I know that's not right.  I WANT ANSWERS, that can only be answered by a voice that remains silent.  I'm walking alone, blindly, in a dark world that's stuck between hopelessness and hope.  The storm is over, but the storm clouds linger and thunder threatens in the distance, stirring up the hidden fears within me.  Will the sun every shine again?  Will I ever encounter my rainbow? 

The JULY Plan

As we all know by now, as much as I try to set a golden plan, real life rarely lines up properly, so here's the tentative plan that will hopefully bring me July fireworks :-)!

Based on all my charted cycles, up to this point, FF has put my O sometime between CD 18-21...

CD10 (July 12)- Start OPK's
CD15 (July 17)- Start BD EOD/OPK's
BD ED once I get my + OPK/Preseed (if needed)
PC 1-5DPO

Mission Rainbow Continues....