Quick Update

The June cycle has begun with AF showing up this morning. *sarcastic yay*  Sad I have to start all over again with TTC another cycle, but glad I have another charted cycle under my belt, to learn from.  THIS TIME Gadget, I will not be caught off guard by that sly O of mine!  I already have a "Plan" a-brewing and will be posting it shortly...muahahaha (smarty-pants laugh of persistence).  This cycle, I'm really going to try to keep my mind off the whole TTC deal, until my fertile window, then again try to focus on other things besides the 2WW, it's just too emotionally and mentally draining to be in TTC mode 24/7, and I also feel like it steals my present reality and time, as the days begin to fly away one after the other.  My life is too full of blessings to not enjoy every second of them and waste precious time chatting about my CM and staring at a chart! Agreed? Agreed!  Off to my day, but will be back to post the "Misson Baby" schedule later (June Edition) ;-)....

Saying good-bye to May and eagerly looking towards June

Well, I'm 11dpo and my temps are on a slow decent downward, signaling AF is most likely on her way.  She should be arriving in a couple of days, by Tuesday.  Mentally, I'm already excited about my next fertile window and my next attempt at a "Plan".  I've already begun to let the hope of May being my month lie to rest.  As surprising as it was to have my O earlier than I expected, it definitely taught me a good lesson: Always Expect the Unexpected (when it comes to my cycles).  Now that I know it's actually possible for me to O early, it will not sneak up on me again!  I better go ahead and purchase another bundle of OPK's now, cuz I'm going to need them.  I'm honestly a teeny bit relieved I am not PG, only because, over the last month DH has been acquiring lots of overtime and I doubt I would be able to get the Medicaid that I would need.  It's a double-edged sword, it's great when he brings home the Fat Checks, but doesn't look good when you apply for Medicaid, oh the joys of his fluctuating salary.  I'll just have to believe when Father sees fit to allow me another pregnancy, He will also provide financially some way, some how.  I would love it if I could just find me a good midwife who's willing to take me on, then we could just make smaller payments on our own, but haven't had any luck in that area yet, and that's a whole other story, worthy of it's own post (will save that for later).  But, right now my focus is on getting PG and maybe, just maybe, June will be my month ;-).

Perseverance at 10dpo and beyond

Took my IC this morning with FMU and was not too surprised to NOT see my BFP. :-(  I could make out a slight indent line, but it was white, not pink.  It appears my Early O was just caught me too off guard, like I thought.  I also had a small temp drop this AM.  I will continue to test EOD until AF arrives, she is due in a few days. You know, I thought I would be more upset than I actually am, I think me already considering the fact that this is probably not my cycle has helped to buffer the results.  It's even comforting to know my O snuck up on me and didn't allow me the chance to implement my "plan", so me not getting my BFP makes more sense than if I had done everything I could and still did not get my BFP.  I also do realize even when I do everything I can, there is still a very good chance none of it will work, ultimately I'm not the one who opens the womb or creates life (which is probably a good thing, no telling how many kids I would have..lol).  I love my babies and would love a whole house full of them, but my wants have to remain in my Father's Hands, for He knows what's best for me. I'm thankful for the peace that I retain when all my plans fail and I can place my hope in trust in ONE more faithful than anyone else.
Is it in Father's Plans for me to get my BFP?  I don't know. Surely not this month.  And I'm okay with that. p

9 dpo and not very hopeful this is my cycle...

Well, I'm 9dpo today and plan on testing in the morning at 10dpo, but feeling like I will not see my BFP. :-(  I have experienced, what I thought to be PG symptoms over the last week, but I also expected them to increase or intensify by now.  The main symptom has been fatigue, I have also had fairly sore and achey bb's, and light cramping from time to time.  I do realize that each pregnancy can vary in symptoms, so I have not lost all hope, for this cycle, yet. 

I have been studying the pregnancy symptoms and HPT's by dpo at http://www.countdowntopregnancy.com/ and have noticed that a little more than half of the women polled received a false negative from their IC test when taken at 10dpo, and more than half finally received a faint positive at 11dpo (using the Wondfo brand, I have).  So, if I get a - in the morning I will try not give up hope just yet, but if I still have a - after testing on Sunday (@ 11dpo), I will assume I will not be seeing a BFP this month, in which I will be very annoyed...BUT, I will not go there yet...and will wait and see what the tests say over the next couple of days.  Still holding on to a glimmer of hope.

On the bright side: My temps are looking fantastic and the best they've looked since charting yet!  And even though fatigue is my main symptom, fatigue is the number one symptom for pregnant women at my dpo.  So, we'll see...the tests will tell the story soon enough.

Currently at 5dpo and waiting & hoping & praying.....

Although I should be 1dpo, I'm already 5dpo, thanks to my surprise O! ;-)  I'm glad to already be so far into my 2WW, but disappointed I didn't get to BD as much as I had planned to.  It only takes ONE, so I'm still hoping this is my month.  If it is, I should be implanting sometime between today and Wed. and may start "feeling" symptoms by Thurs.  I'll probably do a HPT Friday or Saturday, I'll be (9-10dpo), even though that is still kinda early.
I slept with a heating pad on my belly last night, because I read somewhere that is good for implantation, and hey, I'll try anything!..lol.  Whenever I get a chance to lay down over the next couple of days, I'll continue to use it.
I'm still taking the aspirin and will continue that til I get a + HPT, then will stop it.  I've also been taking 400mg of Red Raspberry Leaf every other day and will continue to do that throughout my pregnancy, increasing the dosage every trimester.  I've only heard good things about the RRL, and hoping it pays off for me.
My temps are staying above my coverline and I had a nice jump today, hoping they stay UP!
If I conceive this cycle my EDD will be:  2/9/2012

Appears that I did O earlier than I expected...Drats!

Well, it's going on CD20 and I'm thinking more and more I must have O'ed early last week.  This time last cycle I got my + OPK, but today it was the lightest it's been since getting my earlier +.  My temp this morning was still high (97.1), going by all info gathered so far, I'm going to have to assume I already O'ed.  This doesn't leave me very hopeful for my Rainbow this month, I wasn't prepared at all for an early O and only BD'ed a couple of times.  I do realized those two times could have been enough, but it would've been nice to have BD'ed a lot more during that time.  I went ahead and charted my O on CD17 on FF and it says I'm 3dpo today.  Will be interesting to see how this cycle continues to play out, I haven't charted a cycle with O this early yet, so I don't know if my luteal phase will be longer or if  AF will come sooner than normal OR if I'll end up getting my BFP!  I will be able to start my HPT's next weekend, hopefully until then my temps will stay UP and I'll start feeling some PG symptoms.  If I've conceived I can expect implantation anytime between Tues.-Thurs., so I'll be looking for possible implantation pains or spotting, then I should expect my bb's to sound the alarm..lol.
I wish I knew why I O'ed early and what that will mean for future cycles, now I'm not sure what to expect.  I do know I'll have to start PingOA-OPK way earlier in my cycle now, so I don't miss it! 

Crazy Cycle #4!

Why Oh Why can't I have nice, little, easy-to-read, NON-Confusing Cycles??!!  Here's what's happening in my May Cycle world:

This is the 3rd complete cycle I've been able to chart (well, not yet complete with this one).  The 2 previous cycles lasted about (give or take a day) the same length from start to finish about 33-34 days.  The Luteal Phase lasted about the same length as well, about 13-14 days, with Ovulation being on 20-21CD.  Last cycle (cycle #3), I introduced OPK's to the scene and started them way early on CD10, all tests lined up accordingly with the cycle and temp chart, negative readings until CD20.  Seemed like I had some pretty solid evidence for what my cycles were like these days, right? Not quite!

This cycle (#4) started out well and appeared would end up like all the others, based on my last cycles, I was ready and prepared, had it all planned out (scroll down to "The May Plan" entry, you can see for yourself).  I had my OPK's ready to roll and figured, since I could pretty much pinpoint O (based on past cycles), I wouldn't waste any by using them early, I'd just wait til about CD15, that should be early enough.  Well, we all know (because of the last couple of entries), I was surprised to see a bright and shinning POSITIVE reading on CD14!  I did notice a very little EWCM that night, but how could I be Oing a week early?!  My temps continued to remain pre-O worthy, so after 3 more positive tests on CD14 & 15, I assumed they had to be false, maybe I was having a surge of LH for whatever reason, but I couldn't possibly be releasing an egg.  CD 16 I finally got a negative, but my temps did seem to be on a slow rise.  My cervix still felt Med/Med/Med and my CM had gone back to sticky/creamy.  CD18 I woke up and temp'ed and got a 97.2...whoa...what?!  My temp has never gone above 97 until after an O!  I temp'ed again right away, my nose was kind of stuffy and I thought maybe I was putting to much mouth heat on the thermo., my next temp came up a 96.9, still high, but still low enough to be considered (for me) pre-O.  I made a note of the higher temp, but went ahead and charted the lower, which made more sense. Again, I tested negative on OPK.   Today is CD19 I woke up with a temp of 97.2 AGAIN!  And again I re-tested quickly, which came back with a 97.3, so there was no way I could ignore the high temp. When I got up and went to the restroom I noticed EWCM.  I also seem to be High/Soft/Open, but with a negative OPK. So, here I am, 2 days away from when I was Planning on Oing and things just aren't adding up!  I'm continuing with the "May Plan", just in case I am still to O, but it appears, I may have O'ed already!  So, what am I left with after my fertile week of gathering info? A BIG Mess!  At this point, I don't know if I'm 5dpo OR on the verge of O!  And to add to all the excitement my bb's have been achey today and I've been feeling the need to pee alot and have been exrta sleepy the past couple of days.  So, now I don't know whether to pee on a OPK or pee on a HPT! lol.. (funny, but not really).  All I can do is continue to gather my info. til AF (hoping she doesn't arrive, of course), then sit back and try to figure out the big picture.  My temps will continue to clue me in everyday, they will either continue to stay above 97 or not. 
I'm glad I caught my early + OPK when I did, but did not get to BD as much as I would've liked, but hopefully it was enough.  I will continue with my plan for this weekend, just in case.  I've already taken my Mucinex and am planning on BDing tonight (Friday) and Sunday. 
Thankfully, I even have all this info. to go by, but it's sure not going to do me much good if I have cycles all over the place and can't rely on a set one.
I'm kinda bummed, I don't like feeling confused, but excited at the same time, I'm interested in seeing how this cycle eventually turns out....a BFP on a HPT would be a GREAT ending!  Stay tuned....